pack & unpack
have you ever had to unpack a suitcase that you never were able to take on a trip? i haven’t, but i am about to.
it’s a rather sad experience. to envision an itinerary, play-by-play, only to realize that i’ll never go on that trip, just as it was planned to be gone on. i feel as if i was robbed of something. by something, maybe i mean an idea or the chance to see it through. i’m not exactly sure what it is, but it does feel silly to feel like i lost something i never had in the first place.
there always comes a time, whenever i write about something sad, when i tire of being sad. this is that time. yes, maybe i will never experience what i thought i would this week…but at the same time, i’m believing that it was probably not mine to experience in the first place.
if i keep holding on to the idea that i deserved to fly, i’d be living in denial, unable to be grateful and open to what the Lord destined for me to miss there but be present for here.
so whatever it is today that you might be grieving, or if you’re not grieving for something at all, i challenge you to look at what is present rather than what is lacking today. to be in thanks, instead of complaint, to be in gratitude, instead of “what if”. for that is a challenge i too will embark on today, because i am reminded that He who loves me doesn’t withhold any good thing from me. may you be comforted that whatever missing is God’s way of sparing you and whatever is present is just that, a present.
“For the Lord God is a sun and shield; The Lord will give grace and glory; No good thing will He withhold From those who walk uprightly.”
